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Episode 65: Denial is a Powerful Tool... Against You

Denial is such a powerful tool. We use it to cope with uncertainty, to excuse ourselves from taking needed action, and pretending that we are okay the way things are even if we are not. We can keep living with our eyes pointed to the ground or we can see the truth and experience relief, freedom, and empowerment. We are deserving of positive growth and an abundance of perspective.

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Episode 64: What to do for our Kids...Pornography Exposure & Mental Health

Understanding our children’s mental health needs is just as important as scheduling their dental check up’s. My guest is Maurice Harker CMHC of Life Changing Services. He passionately shares what to say to our children and how to help arm them with knowledge to face the world of pornography and addiction, as well as being proactive in their mental and emotional health. He gives examples and dialogue of what to do and how to do it when talking with our kids. Don’t rely on yourself to figure it out.

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Episode 63: Tips to Navigate Trauma Response and Triggers (part 3 mini series)

Life changes when we suffer from trauma and triggers. It’s hard to go places we used to go, do things we once loved, and participate in activities that we once didn’t think twice about. We want our life back. As we are healing, those triggers show up and can take over. Being prepared ahead of time can help us stay clear and grounded and begin the process of taking back our life. There is hope to be able to be free again and live life to the fullest. It takes time and effort but it is possible.

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Episode 62: The Judgements From Others About Divorce (part 2 mini series)

It’s hard enough to be faced with divorce let alone have our friends and family tell us what we should and shouldn’t be doing. In this mini episode I talk through the judgements we receive and how to handle them.

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Episode 61: Forgiveness is for Me, Not Someone else (part 1 mini series)

It’s common when someone who has betrayed us or caused us harm in some way is asking us to forgive and forget. This happens because they will feel better about what they did if we are no longer in pain. In this first episode of our mini series where I will be answering common questions I receive, we go over what forgiveness looks like for us.

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Episode 60: Is Shoe Leather Stew Enough for You in your Relationship?

The resiliency of women has been proven throughout time. You are no different. You handle so much, do so much, endure so much. My guest Maurice Harker CMHC of Life-Changing Services boldly shares what to look for when a spouse is choosing recovery from addiction, what you are scientifically deserving of, and that your children will be okay. You don’t want to miss this episode. I was blown away by his insight.

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Episode 59: Excavating Our Life to Create a Blank Slate

When we are standing in that desolate place in our mind and feel paralyzed and stuck with all that has been lost and not knowing how to feel happy or productive again or the feeling of not knowing how to progress and move forward, create for yourself a blank slate.

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Episode 58: Repost of our most popular and important Episode. E 23. What Emotional & Verbal Abuse Can Sound Like

Repost of Episode 23. Words, phrases, and actions explaining what verbal and emotional abuse looks like and sounds like. Steps we can take to learn and change these behaviors in ourselves and boundaries we can place to keep safe from others if we are being abused in this way

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Episode 57: Owning Our Worth...We Don't have to Earn it, It's Already There. -With Guest Christine Baird

Such a great interview with Christine Baird. She is a worth expert and teaches others through her podcast "The Worthfull Project" how to own their own worth. Learning that and coming to a place of "knowing" that you don't have to earn your worth fills your soul with love as you come to believe and accept that it's already in you. You just have to remember that it's there and always has been...

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Episode 56: “To Grieve Our Losses Means to Surrender to Our Feelings”

Sitting with our feelings allows us to grieve and surrender to the hold they have on us. This allows for peace as we let go. This is where we change our false beliefs, heal past wounds, and overcome the barriers that have been in our way keeping us from succeeding.

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Episode 55: Why Being an Observer in Friendships and Intimate Relationships is so Important

We take key points from last weeks interview with Geoff Steurer on being an observer, and show how important that is in all our relationships. Being an observer gives us information and truth so we can accept and make better decisions.

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Episode 54: What Does it Look Like When My Partner Is Choosing Recovery and What Do I Do For Myself and Personal Healing - With Guest Geoff Steurer LMFT

I am talking with Geoff Steurer LMFT about what signs and actions we are looking for and can expect when a partner is trying to build trust back into the marriage after infidelity and betrayal. We cover what that looks like staying in the relationship and also healing personally whether in the marriage or moving forward without our partner. The insight he shares is so helpful and eye opening, and offers clarity so we can make healthy decisions.

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Episode 53: Breaking Down Walls from the Other Side

We come up against a wall; sometimes one of our own and other times someone else’s. In this episode I’m talking about a new way to look at these walls and what to do about them. How do we tackle breaking them down? We will be looking at them from a new angle.

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Episode 52: Living Life on Purpose

Looking at life, our healing, and what is holding us back from being our truest and best self, will blow our perspective out of the water and change everything! Being completely intentional with what we’re doing and why; asking ourselves the deep questions bring us the greatest discoveries which is equal to adding so much joy. Knowing and learning brings peace.

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Episode 51 CHOOSE IN to Continued Change and Growth

Excitement is brewing as I go over all the things I want to share with you and all that is coming! New empowering tools and tips.

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Episode 50: Your Mind Will Grow Whatever You Plant

We’ve got to change what we are putting in our mind so we can create new pathways and beliefs if we want our life to improve and receive our desired outcome.

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Episode 49: Learning How and How Not to Save a Person from Themselves

We want so badly to save our partner or family member from themselves and their choices. It doesn’t work like we want. We end up losing ourself and our sanity when we exhaust everything on their behalf. But there is a way to offer love, tools, and everything, in a way that heals us and helps us get stronger.

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Episode 48: God is Offering to Save You if You Let Him

I was a witness to a domestic violence situation and I acted. God brought safety right to her front door and offered a way to be saved. What’s on your front porch showing you how to be saved, change, take action, etc? Are you letting God show you how to be saved? And are you taking it?

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Episode 47: Taking Back Trauma Holidays and Turning Them into Love

I took back Valentines Day. Trauma will no longer own me or any other date that brings up past trauma experiences. I teach you a technique to raise your vibration to shift your heart and mind and change the way you view the outcomes of the future.

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Episode 46: Rejecting Shame

Noticing the shame we carry and feel when we are happy, sad, or being treated poorly will help us learn how to reject it. We will not allow it to have place in us anymore. Shame robs us of feeling good enough and tells us lies about who we are and what are true situation is. We are busting through shame in this episode to find even more healing.

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Episode 45: Finding Our Power and Owning It

As we find our power from deep within we begin to change our circumstances. With each step of change we feel empowered with our growth and healing. We begin to feel happy and proud of ourselves. This joy moves us forward. Healing happens. Life changes. And it feels good.

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Episode 44: Emotional Resilience and Healing

Building our emotional resilience will give us the strength we need to find our way out of chaos and onto finding personal healing.

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Episode 43: Choose to Heal and Thrive in 2021

What is up and coming in 2021 with me and Choose In?! Listen in and hear all that is happening so you don’t miss the opportunity to be a part of something meant for you. You can stay where we are or you can take the steps to thrive personally this year! It feels good to feel strong and empowered! You’ve got this.

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Episode 42: Kids: What and How Much to Tell? Will it Harm Them? Addiction and Divorce

How to navigate a child’s well-being when their parent is an addict as well as what’s the impact of the truth and choosing divorce. We cover all of that!

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Episode 41: Unwanted Thoughts and Stories Pop into my Head and cause me problems

Becoming aware, separating truth from fiction, and finding coping strategies, all help with the unwanted triggers that pop into our head creating stories that send us spiraling. That doesn’t have to happen. We can change the outcome.

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Episode 40: Finding Healing Through the Holidays

The Holiday Season brings a lot of joy and a lot of pain and sadness for many who have gone through or are going through hard times. This episode covers the heartache as well as talks about finding or making a healing home regardless of what’s missing. There is peace and pain all rolled up in one as we navigate life’s experiences.

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Episode 39: I Don’t Want My Ego Making My Decisions

If we learn what the ego is and why it does what it does, we can recognize what to do and how to manage it. We see more clearly how to make decisions based on our authentic self rather than from the protective fearful ego. Life-changing to learn this skill.

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Episode 38: Finding Our Answers by Letting Go

Learning to control ourselves, our actions and inactions, show us the truth. Navigating from a clear head provides action and answers. Staying closed and stuck in chaos prevents us from positive thinking and making decisions.

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Episode 37: To Find Our Purpose We Have to Surrender

Pride and ego keep up living in unawareness of what we need to gain, what to let go of, and that we can create new beliefs. Letting down our guard shows us what to do and how; and we gain our purpose. We find ourselves.

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Episode 36: Our Personal Moving Sidewalk of Healing

We are always moving forward watching and noticing what comes into our path. Sometimes it’s to pause and take notice. Other times we see what action to take in our healing of trauma, abuse, betrayal, or personal limitations. We can find hope knowing that we are exactly where we need to be at any given moment.

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Episode 35: Of course I'm Okay! But Actually I'm Not

Learning to tell the truth of what is really going on in our life. You are worth it to let someone know your struggle. You are valuable enough to not hold everything inside alone. Tell the truth.

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Episode 34: Divorce... How Will I Know?

Choosing to divorce is a complicated and painful decision. In this episode, I talk about the questions you can ask yourself, the choice of staying, and both the heartache and benefits if divorce is the right answer for you and your family. Ultimately it’s a decision made between you and God.

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Episode 33: The Payout of Healing is HUGE

When we do the healing work in all areas and all levels we become whole. The payout is worth the time, effort, and money. Healing emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally is possible as we Choose In to ourselves. You are worth it. God will send just the right tools for you to fully heal.

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Episode 32: Vulnerability...Scary but Worth it

Description: It is extremely scary to be vulnerable. As we learn the key areas we need it, and develop the skills to practice it, our lives move forward. We get better, feel better, and our relationships greatly improve. Vulnerability is a form of honesty and integrity. It's imperative for growth and healing.

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Episode 31: Recognizing our Heart Wounds Part 2

We are looking deep at our heart wounds, talking through how to heal them, and the benefits of love and happiness that come with doing that hard rewarding work.

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Episode 30: Recognizing our Heart Wounds Part 1

The walls we formed around our heart were built to protect us. But they will harm us in our present and future, and prevent growth and love, if we don’t heal those wounds.

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Episode 29: The Fear of the Unknown is Consuming Me

Learn how to understand where fear is coming from, how to recognize it, and how to let it go, so you can move out of feeling paralyzed by taking action steps to move forward.

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Episode 28: How Do I Go Out of Town When I Don't Trust my Spouse?

There is a way to live your own life and not be a prisoner to the what if's. Learn the phrases you need that will help you let go of trying to control what he does or does not do so that you can be happy and free.

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Episode 27: Looking Through a Clear Lens for Future Happiness

Choosing the healing work changes everything. Everytime you learn something new it's as if a weight is lifted off your shoulders and you feel lighter and free. My husband Garin joins me for a portion of the episode sharing why he does his healing work even though it's hard.

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Episode 26: Don’t Turn Back to the Past, Step Forward

Description: When we are faced with triggers or past trauma, it’s easy to turn back to what feels familiar. Challenge yourself to move through the pain rather than repeat the heartache.

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Episode 25: Being Vulnerable Brings True Freedom

From the words of Brene' Brown, "Courage starts with showing up and letting ourselves be seen"...."Because true belonging only happens when we present our authentic, imperfect selves to the world, our sense of belonging can never be greater than our level of self-acceptance."

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Episode 24: Does Your Relationship Have Abusive Dialogue?

Listen to these examples to see if this resonates with you. I talk about scenarios where abuse may not be noticed and I give you phrases you can use to set boundaries.

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Episode 23: What Emotional & Verbal Abuse Can Sound Like

Words, phrases, and actions explaining what verbal and emotional abuse looks like and sounds like. Steps we can take to learn and change these behaviors in ourselves and boundaries we can place to keep safe from others if we are being abused in this way

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Episode 22: Being Still and Letting Go

We don’t have to navigate and control everything around us trying to make sure it all works out.

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Episode 21: Crisis Opens Our Eyes to Learning and Transformation.

With recent events of chaos and destruction how can we open our eyes to what’s happening in our own homes and learn to see things different so we can take action.

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Episode 20: What Felt Impossible Actually Saved Me

How to turn what feels impossible into peace and freedom from the chaos of the unknown.

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Episode 19: Gratitude: The Pain Has a Purpose

Asking questions to name the pain that is triggering us, leads to validation and letting go, and continuing forward in our healing.

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Episode 18: Why is There Pain When the Trial is Over

There is pain and exhaustion after the work is done and the major part of the trial is over. We discuss why this happens and how to navigate to healing

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Episode 17: Big or Small, Your Story Matters.

Betrayal is shocking regardless of our experience. The heart does not know the difference between pornography addiction and/or face to face infidelity. What you’ve experienced is worth holding space for. It does not need to be compared to another persons trauma.

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Episode 16: Healthy Boundaries Show an Acceptance of Reality

“Stop asking why they keep doing it, and start asking yourself why you keep allowing it”

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Episode 15: Staying Quiet Protects One. Speaking Out Protects Many

Speaking truth is hard to do and hard to hear sometimes but its the way to living in truth and not continually pushing things under the rug as if its not happening all around us. Staying quiet may protect the one, but speaking out protects many.

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Episode 14: Getting Out Of Our Own Way

So much freedom to enjoy when we get out of our own way and remove our false beliefs.

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Episode 13: Removing our Blinders to see our Grief So we can Heal

Putting our grief on the table, being open to new ways of seeing, brings us awareness and furthers healing.

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Episode 12: Love; Letting God In

We are precious to God. We talk about what that means, how we can remember that truth, and how to take advantage of His Love.

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Episode 11: Wholeness - You Have to ACT in Order to Receive

You have to “Act” in order to receive the answers you need that will change your situation. Acting for yourself rather than being “acted upon” will strengthen you so you will be able to make hard decisions when needed.

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Episode 10: Our Logical and Emotional Brain Need Separate Healing

Shaming our emotional brain hinders our progress and healing. Learn to accept both our logic and our emotional ways of thinking to reach clarity and healing.

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Episode 9: Acting From a Place of Fear

When panic and chaos suddenly appear, do I react from a place of fear or of a sound mind? What is my body trying to tell me?

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Episode 8: Who Am I and How Do I Find Her

Finding our worth by using a list and container to unpack and see clear the steps we need to take in order to uncover our worth and become ready to take control of our happiness.

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Episode 7: Two Steps Forward...Ten Steps Back

We all fall short at times. We learn something and then make the same mistake again and again. This episode talks about why this happens and how it's part of our growth and progression.

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Episode 6: The Harm of Denial and Enabling

It's harmful when we try to save another person from the consequence of their choices. If we are in denial of the truth and enable others we are hindering our progress as well as theirs.

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Episode 5: Self Care - How What When Where

It's important to know how to decompress our stress and anxieties. We talk through many ways to combat overwhelming feelings and return to a state of peace allowing clarity to fill our mind and soul.

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Episode 4: It's Not My Fault. Why Do I Have to Do the Work?

We are getting real with the truth about how our behaviors are limiting our progress in finding healing and recovery from trauma.

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Episode 3: This is So Hard...And that's Okay

Trauma told me the only way to survive was to see the whole picture. My higher power and the 12-step program told me to take one step at a time.

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Episode 2: First Steps to Healing Betrayal and Trauma

It was time to accept my reality. The truth was staring me in the face. I needed to heal me...but how?

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Episode 1: I thought my Life was a Lie

Episode 1: I thought my Life was a Lie: As a survivor of betrayal, infidelity, trauma, and emotional abuse, I Chose In to doing the hard work necessary to see through the manipulation, deceit, and lies that came from being the spouse of an addict.

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